hello. my name is reina.

I love bands and The Perks Of Being  A Wallflower. This is my secret personal blog. Most of my friends think neon-gl0w is my personal blog but it’s not. I was suicidal and I don’t know if I am now. It’s just really confusing. I don’t know if anyone would ever ever read this shit about me.

I’ve been called fat by my friends and it hurts but I just laugh at it. But it really really hurts. I didn’t really think of myself as fat because I thought I had normal weight but then I realized thin for them is like stick thin. Most of my friends wouldn’t eat because they want to be thin when they already are. So..I don’t know. 

I’ve been trying to be ‘positive’ these days and I don’t know how actually. If I have to weigh how many times I’ve been called pretty and how many times I’ve been called ugly or fat. Ugly/fat weighs the most because no one ever told me I’m pretty or beautiful. Well, my parents did but it didn’t really count because it was just to cheer me up or something. I don’t really know.

Music saves me. It’s the reason why I haven’t been cutting myself anymore.

The Maine saves me from everything. They are the reason why I have hope. I will never say this is just a ‘phase’ or a ‘silly obsession’. They are the reason why I keep going. They make me strong. When I’m sad and I’m in school…I think of them and I feel like there’s always something better that will come along.

To anyone who read this whole thing, thank you. And I hope you’d got to my ask and say hi or something because I really would like to have a friend here on Tumblr.